Monday, February 22, 2010

In and Outs 002 ♥


I am very pleased to say that I was accepted to my first choice of College. I am feeling so much right now..mainly excitement and anxiety. I am so glad that (if I do go to this school) I will be moving out and starting my own life. However, being a major homebody I am also extremely nervous about leaving. I can’t wait till I go on a tour of the school and make an informed decision. These next few months before September will definitely be interesting.

Spring/Summer - I am so over this horrible weather! I am ready for shorts and florals, biking, the beach, and so much more! I can’t wait till I can just slip on some shorts and a tee and not have to worry about layering.

Heels- Once this snow is gone I am investing in a good couple pairs of heels. I have been obsessed with them lately and being the uncoordinated person that I am I have never considered them before. But now that my fashion sense has evolved I am ready to face the heels and be fabulous.


I had been ecstatic ever since my mom told me she would take me to Toronto Fashion Week. This has been something I’ve wanted to do ever since a couple years ago when I was there shopping and I walked by the tent where it was held. Also this would have been the first time I’ve ever been to a runway show. I was planning out everything about that trip. The hotel, the shopping, the everything. However, when the website with the details on the show was finally up I discovered that you must be 19 to attend. Being fucking 18 years old I cannot attend. This made me extremely upset as I was so looking forward to seeing the shows. I am angry because why do you have to be 19?! Last time I checked 18 was considered an adult in Ontario. Anyways I won’t bore you with my rants..I’m just disappointed that I have to wait another year.

My weight - I know I am not the only girl at the moment stressed about their weight. It seems to be around that time..where all the Christmas weight is there and summer is soon approaching. I however have been gaining weight ever since I met my boyfriend two and half years ago. I became so comfortable with him that eating healthy and working out wasn’t important anymore. I became extremely lazy and now two and half years later, many pounds heavier I am in a rut. I am at my breaking point with my body as I am extremely insecure with it now. I have always had trouble with my weight..I was bullied a lot in Elementary School about my body and appearance and ever since then the negativity has just stuck with me. I did lose a lot of weight in Grade 9 and I was at my thinnest in Grade 10. I was extremely happy with my appearance then. Now I just feel completely disgusting. However, I know my mind set and my lifestyle is unhealthy ( I am a junk food addict) so I am going to change that and become healthy..and hopefully my appearance and my opinion of myself will change. I think I might do a weight loss post now and then like most bloggers are doing at the moment. I think it will help motivate me into really trying. I really want to be bikini ready in time for summer. If you are dealing with a similar situation or are even just struggling with something then let me know. I am always here to talk if you need to.




Blogger Courtney said...

good luck with your healthy eating! I am also trying to do that right now. its not so easy when you love eating junk! but we can do it! :)

February 22, 2010 at 1:01 PM  
Blogger Charlie ♥ said...

well done with the college, thats great! i got into my first choice of uni, its the best feeling :)
im so, so excited to go uni, im barely feeling any nerves. i need to get the HELL out of my house right now, im so sick of just...everything.
and about your weight, i think your perfect size, so i dont know what your worrying about, but then i guess each to his own! and your boyfriend is so cute and he obviously must like you if you've been in a relationship for 2 1/2 years! i hope you feel better about it soon ♥



February 22, 2010 at 1:36 PM  
Blogger Daisy Chain Adventures said...

Good luck with your healthy eating! i felt like you were talking about me when talking about your weight. I want to really start getting fit to.. maybe email me and we can help each other through?

February 22, 2010 at 1:38 PM  
Blogger Sarah @ Pandora's Box said...

Hell yeah to heels! I often opt for wedges myself since I'm a super klutz ;)

February 22, 2010 at 1:38 PM  
Blogger Reverie said...

You're not alone with the weight issue, completely understand what you mean when you say that you became confortable and it spiralled from there. Good luck with your new regime :)

February 22, 2010 at 3:01 PM  
Blogger Katie Hayward said...

oooh I feel your pain, Im the same since I met my bf I've just piled it on and piled it on, hopefully this year I will loose it and be comfy with myself :D I hope your weightloss goes well :D

Lots of love,

February 22, 2010 at 3:38 PM  
Blogger Sarah (Buzz) said...

I am so ready for hot weather and shorts too.

February 22, 2010 at 6:11 PM  
Blogger streetlighteyes said...

Being in a relationship did the same thing for me! Except I lost a lot of weight at the start of our relationship, kept it off for a good while then it piled back on again. Meanwhile, four years later, I'm still a little piggy. And it's so hard to get motivated then to STAY motivated. It'll all work out in the end :)

February 22, 2010 at 7:47 PM  
Blogger Charlotte A Hannaway said...

You just described my life in your last OUT LOL.
I've lost half a stone from just stopping eating crap, im trying to get my boyfriend to do it too :)

February 23, 2010 at 8:35 AM  

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