IN
I am very pleased to say that I was accepted to my first choice of College. I am feeling so much right now..mainly excitement and anxiety. I am so glad that (if I do go to this school) I will be moving out and starting my own life. However, being a major homebody I am also extremely nervous about leaving. I can’t wait till I go on a tour of the school and make an informed decision. These next few months before September will definitely be interesting.
Spring/Summer - I am so over this horrible weather! I am ready for shorts and florals, biking, the beach, and so much more! I can’t wait till I can just slip on some shorts and a tee and not have to worry about layering.
Heels- Once this snow is gone I am investing in a good couple pairs of heels. I have been obsessed with them lately and being the uncoordinated person that I am I have never considered them before. But now that my fashion sense has evolved I am ready to face the heels and be fabulous.
OUT
I had been ecstatic ever since my mom told me she would take me to Toronto Fashion Week. This has been something I’ve wanted to do ever since a couple years ago when I was there shopping and I walked by the tent where it was held. Also this would have been the first time I’ve ever been to a runway show. I was planning out everything about that trip. The hotel, the shopping, the everything. However, when the website with the details on the show was finally up I discovered that you must be 19 to attend. Being fucking 18 years old I cannot attend. This made me extremely upset as I was so looking forward to seeing the shows. I am angry because why do you have to be 19?! Last time I checked 18 was considered an adult in Ontario. Anyways I won’t bore you with my rants..I’m just disappointed that I have to wait another year.
My weight - I know I am not the only girl at the moment stressed about their weight. It seems to be around that time..where all the Christmas weight is there and summer is soon approaching. I however have been gaining weight ever since I met my boyfriend two and half years ago. I became so comfortable with him that eating healthy and working out wasn’t important anymore. I became extremely lazy and now two and half years later, many pounds heavier I am in a rut. I am at my breaking point with my body as I am extremely insecure with it now. I have always had trouble with my weight..I was bullied a lot in Elementary School about my body and appearance and ever since then the negativity has just stuck with me. I did lose a lot of weight in Grade 9 and I was at my thinnest in Grade 10. I was extremely happy with my appearance then. Now I just feel completely disgusting. However, I know my mind set and my lifestyle is unhealthy ( I am a junk food addict) so I am going to change that and become healthy..and hopefully my appearance and my opinion of myself will change. I think I might do a weight loss post now and then like most bloggers are doing at the moment. I think it will help motivate me into really trying. I really want to be bikini ready in time for summer. If you are dealing with a similar situation or are even just struggling with something then let me know. I am always here to talk if you need to.
xx
Sarah
